The Pain Has Softened You, My Child

Your pain was not what God wanted. However, God did want you to be softer and more malleable to His touch. Like you have said and written, it is not what the pain does to you, it is what you do with the pain. In your new past/new reality, use what the pain has given you. Use every stinking ounce of what the pain has given you. Use all you have in any time, for the glory of God.